.Monday, August 30, 2004
english/chinese and the growing fats
ate 6 octopus balls made by penny today.
haha.. such a pig.
ate someone elses share. but hey! it doesn't matter.
im happy =) PIG!
yes.. i'm happie until i got home and WOOOH
i looked at the weighing scale.. nooo..
fats fats fats.. imagine all the fat chains in my body.
yuck! diet time. running helps release stress anyway.
today chinese paper 1 and enlgish paper 1.
it felt ok when i was writing the essay
but once the papers left my hand. i think i'm gonna fail. big time.
especially my chinese..
what! me and my itchy fingers.. have to write bao zhang bao dao.
so extra.. never done that kinda question before (onli 2 times)
and i had to experiment it during the prelims. shucks.
well look on the bright side, at least i didn't experiment it during the Os.
haha. yes i'm stupid and i'm dumb. what can i say/
sheesh! english compo. i had to take the persona of an eagle?
what does being an eagle have anything to do with the topic word "flying"?
i dun make sense sometimes. fine all the time!!
ahhh..
things i ate/drank today (haha. i'm senseless):
number one: a glass of water/six octopus balls by penny
number two: milo!
number three: some crispy noodle (partly attacked by birds)
number four: a can of green tea
number five: chicken mayo with extra mayo
number six: a big bowl of instant noodles
number seven: a glass of fresh milk
number eight: a plate of nasi lemak
number nine: a glass or water.
so much food.. how to survive like that
i would probably die of clogged arteries.
heart attack.
DIET TIME! anybody wanna go swimming with me?
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.Sunday, August 29, 2004
the mask we put on eveyday
if i wear a mask, i can fool the world, but i cannot fool my heart
when one is torn between popularity and being oneself,
everything is difficult to understand.
most people love the oh so happy one in school,
but who would love the one who's never happy?
the one who's broken inside?
they find them a burden.
growing up in secondary school without friends just makes things even worse.
but if we don't hide how we feel, will we even have friends?
but truly, how many show their true feelings when being around these friends?
3? 2? 1? maybe none.
everyone wears a mask, to cover up the hurt and pain they feel.
telling others makes it sound as if one indulges in self-pity.
i admit, i am that friend who sometimes isn't willing to help when it's not the right time.
like in the middle of the night, or when i'm stressed up myself.
BUT it doesn't mean i don't understand, i don't care.
i do care..
but somehow i will show the world
what's inside my heart
and be loved for who i am
i thank you all those who love me for who i am.
you are the ones i feel i don't have to hide my feelings in front of you.
thank you for being there for me through my ups and downs.
through my times of pure joy, sadness and monthly frustrations.
thank you for your patience and kind understanding.
i'm blessed by God to have met friends like you.
i love you all.
who is that girl i see, staring straight back at me
when will my reflection show who i am inside?
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.Friday, August 27, 2004
the lonely heart--
for i have no one to confide in.
and my heart will keep its secrets.
the pain, the sorrow will stay within.
i will survive,
i will adapt to what i do not have.
i've broken through the chain,
the chain where i was the weakest link.
the chain of indifference.
i feel what i do not wish to feel.
the emotions gush through,
when i realise i feel what it all meant.
i have a heart, i feel.
everything will be kept within
until the pain finds a way out of me.
the burden i feel shall not be shared.
only to one who overlook my weaknesses,
geniunely cares, loves and is not easily angered.
for the burden i have causes frustrations.
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.Thursday, August 26, 2004
injury
rahrah was showering this morning
and the stupid shower thingum fell off the wall
and *BANG* on her poor little foot.
OUCH!!! it was bleeding as there was a (quite) deep cut.
and it was reddish blue black? ewww..
yes so as she was late for school, she rushed down the stairs.
and put on her socks.
her MGS school socks were so rough
that it..
hurt like mad
poor little rahrah was a little lame (pun!!!)
a little indifferent today in school.
poor penny! i was shouting at her around the clock.
wonder if she's as scared as me as she was when we were sec 2.
sorrie girlie!
i guess i felt much better after my nap..
and i received something which shall not be mentioned..
thank you! i feel much better now!!!
so yes! my mgs friends..
don't worrie about me..
better be happie that at least i feel better now thus you girls dont' have to suffer under my "PMS" haha.
fair ye well my liege..
PS: oh yea thou close friends,
pray thee contain in thy minds the
fact that thou hast no need to attend thy
boring teachings the
day after today in the midst of thy mugging. understand??? =)
please take tomorrow to study ok? not like i do much myself! but hey! i do try! prelims have started for some of you already! so please please please study! no more playing ok? rahrah is no naggy grandma! she cares!
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.Wednesday, August 25, 2004
indifference vs love
i begin to realise that i am becoming what i used to be back in sec 2.
sadly, maybe to a certain extent, even worse.
i am absolutely indifferent now. like emotionless.
currently i feel,
happy sad depressed angry loved stressed joyful upset indifferent embarrassed remorse cheerful sympathetic
i dunno wad's becoming of me.. i just feel like dying.. killing myself.. and leaving this lonely world.. life is meaningless.. what have i become.. a monster?
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.
i hate you me
i hate
you myself!
yes you sarah low wanlin!
maybe i should just disappear from the face of this earth
before i hurt anyone else.
i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate MYSELF.
i'm
heartless . unappreciative . hopeless .
yes i admit, i am an absolute ingrat.
when i think about it, i have absolutely no talent
and so now.. i begin to think that i can make myself have a talent.
i can try make people happie.. but i've
failed terribly
all i do is hurt everyone around me.
life suddenly became meaningless.
i loooooove you my friend.
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.Tuesday, August 24, 2004
some things should never be left unsaid
shucks! i feel like crap now..
i'm very very sorrie my friend!
i always asked myself why didn't i do what i should have done.
now, i've caused one close to me to lose faith in me.
why can't i be someone trustworthy of once?
i hate myself. i really do.
i don't think i'll ever be able to forgive myself.
i only wish that i would not lose particular friend who means so much to me.
but whatever the outcome..
i thank you Heavenly Father for sending your angel down to comfort me and guide me through times of joy and sadness.
this friendship was one of the greatest gifts i've received from my Heavenly Daddy.
whatever it is..
i'll never forget youuuu..
to all the bio-ers in 4b4:
all the best!
remember your fruits and flowers.
try not to be careless and calculate the magnifications correctly ok?
just remember that if you tried your best, you know that you've done your best.
Just go there and do your best, let God to the rest.
Good Luck and God Bless! i'll pray for you guys!
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.Monday, August 23, 2004
english oral!!!!!
ky and my new blog!
remember to change your links!!!
haha.. my examiners are highly amusing!
whee! haha.. i don't think i'm gonna do well
'cos for chinese Os.. i made the examiners laugh too..
but wad did i get? a
passed grade.. so ya..
but this was seriously amusing..
the examiner had such a high voice.. (much higher than mine, mind you)
and i dunno what i said that made them laugh so hard.
i merely answered the questions.
haha.. i talked about my visit to a cemetry when i was a young little girl.
and all the little details of how i ended up there.
thank goodness they were laughing and so was i..
and we were laughing real hard..
i dunno what is wrong with me but i seem to be really really good at doing badly for my major exams.
and while i was reading the passage,
the examiners
burped 3 times.
i tried to hide my laughters with coughs and all..
but i think i failed to do so.. sighh.
so it won't appear as rude if i laughed at that the guy!
haha.. oh wellz. IT'S OVER! i hope that i dun get another passed grade.
it's just gonna kill me.
therefore i conclude,
laughter isn't always the best medicine!
haha.. but i realised O level orals are always the most fun and amusing exams you can ever take..
even though the grades will shock you! hahahahhaha.. see ya! yes in case you're wondering, i'm high. very high. muuuackkks! haha.. i looooove youuu! all!
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.Sunday, August 22, 2004
pissed off--
='(
frankly speaking.
i am really really upset and sad.
to the point that i am speechless for now.
haix.
anti pap:
i'm sorrie if your life is so sad that you have nothing better to do.
i'd like to tell you that if you're that great
go play badminton or table tennis yourself.
and if you want, try swimming then.
get a life!!
i'm in a very very bad mood now..
and i'm so sorrie if you have no heart
and continue to be your unsympathetic self.
sheesh! and if you think that pap really sucks that badly,
why not try starting and developing a country of your own
and i'll see that the population there is like 1?
you aren't even daring enough to leave your name here!
and if you really think that singapore sucks that much,
why don't you just get your butt off our little peaceful island
and
NEVER COME BACK!
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.Saturday, August 21, 2004
olympics results =(
i'm so sad.
and somewhat angry.
i don't believe it
it was such a close game.
li jia wei lost to korea!
i'm very very sad now..
but nonetheless.. i am still gonna cheer her when she fights for the bronze medal
tomorrow at 4pm
MUST WATCH OK?
GO SINGAPORE!
and to the anti-pap on my blog :
i'm in a very very bad mood now..
so please LEAVE ME ALONE!
if you're so good, go play yourself!
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.
=) one way! Jesus!
LOVE MGS was last night..
and i didn't expect myself to end up ushering
'cos my ex-tuition teacher (annabelle) told me that there was enough people.
yeah.. so when i went to say a very very big HELLO to her,
she pulled me and ade into ushering..
of 'cos with the fact that we were wearing skirts, mrs hang was giving us strange looks all the while.
i spent the whole night running away from her. haha.
but it was a great night..
heard a really powerful and touching testimony yesterday.
made me feel like crying with her...
oh yes!
luddie came back to Christ last night after a very long while..
HALLELUJAH!
ahhh! i'm so happie for her! i was so happie that i kinda went high.
haha.. high to the point that i started triple punning on the word high!
but i guess i've toned down quite a lot today =)
thank God for that..
so i went for 4 hours tuition... as usual
and was dead tired. so i went to the fridge and took a can of coke (mind you, not carbon) out.
and because i was so tired.. i forgot the close the fridge door..
and goodness me! i was suaned like crap there.
so thank goodness the 4 hours passed real fast..
went home and ate a lot.. (by the way i had a VERY heavy breakfast)
gosh then i went to the weighing scale.. AHHHHHHH.
but nevermind. i will always remember the testimony!
so for now. i take my leave. fair ye well.
muackx--
PS: by the way, the aussie swim team coach isn't very smart. putting ian thorpe as a reserve in a relay team is a very very big mistake.
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.Friday, August 20, 2004
love mgs!
oh congratulate me.
i've been speaking and writing chinese the whole of today.
well not speaking at all times though.
ahhh.. i am getting so excited.
LOVE MGS is tonight!!!!
it's gonna be so much fun.. well at least i hope so..
and i might be able to help out in ushering..
and i get to meet my ex-tuition teacher!!!
haven't seen her for ages.. i wonder how she's doing! and our bet is still on after so long.
oh yes.. and before i forget something..
so yes. today was a terrible day! like it was so warm and suddenly, THUNDER! and heavy rain!
i feel like i'm putting on so much weight these days..
sighh.. it's time i go on a diet!
no more chocolates, sugary stuff for meeee..
i am gonna sleep so i will get all hyped up for LOVE MGS and then i'll have a really great time there!
see yaaaaaa
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.Thursday, August 19, 2004
where has my self-confidence gone?
in troubled times it's You i seek, i put you first that's all i need. i humble all i am, all to You.
i realised that the only one that can ever be there for us at every moment of the day, is none other than Our Heavenly Father. i used to think and believe that no matter how much i prayed, i wouldn't feel the difference in my life. But now that i'm going through a tough patch in my life, a stressful one, a part that i feel that life is meaningless, i never fail to find peace with Him. and indeed i know that in troubled times, when no one is there for me, i can always seek God's love and guidance.. and i will always remember, that for everything that happens, i must remember to THANK God.. good or bad, there are reasons why things happen the way they do.
and i was talking to mrs chong today as well, and i realised that i have actually changed so much from last year.. but i don't believe that it's actually the study camp's fault, but if it isn't, what else could it be.. the feeling of being filtered by the school to be known as the bottom of the cohort really doesn't make me feel good.. she was telling me that the study camp did me more harm than good.. my happy go lucky personality is more of less gone after the camp.. and of course my self-confidence dropped.. speaking of which, she said i had the CBB (can't be bothered) attitude after the camp.. i believe it's because after being filtered like that, i begin to realise that no matter how hard i try, i won't be able to make it, so why bother? BUT she consistently reminded me that God is always there for me, to give me peace and that if the people around me haven't given up on me, why should i give up on myself? it's the last league of my life in mgs and why not make it a good one.. even if i don't do well, i know that i have tried my best and i will then have no regrets.. but as ky always tells herself just before the exam starts, she always says "i will do well, i'm clever, i studied, i am gonna do very very well....."
confidence actually plays a very important role in one's life. without self-confidence, we won't believe in ourselves and if we don't believe in ourselves, the possible will seem impossible to us..
i believe in the impossible if i reach deep within my heart.. overcome any obstacle won't let this dream fall apart.. see i strive to be the very best, shine my light for all to see.. cause anything is possible, when you belive.
[update/.]
li jia wei played well!!! =) BUT jeremy khoo is out of Singapore idol! =( he had a very unique voice and style of singing, kinda reminded me of john stevens. sighh
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.Wednesday, August 18, 2004
10 things i disklike about school.
1) we have to wake up early everyday.
2) they are so strict about our attire (hair, badge, socks etc.)
3) we have like test every other day.
4) no matter how hard you study, no one's happie
5) the canteen's always so crowded
6) i've been eating the same food for close to 10 years
7) they play the same song every morning.
8) they disabled the "clear history" option on most computers so teachers can go to sites we go to.
9) lessons are so boring.
10) the classroom is freezing? haha.
that wasn't actually the point of writing all these nonsense.. i've been feeling really demoralised the past few days.. it's like i spent
4 hours studying for my chinese ting xie today.. but guess what.. i failed. real bad. as usual. i kinda expected it.. it's like no matter how much i study, if nothing goes in, nothing goes in.. don't bother trying so hard? i dunno.. nothing went it last night.. so i thought perseverence would get me somewhere.. but noooo.. i got like 7/20? it's so rubbish lahz.. i don't believe i sacrificed my a math for chinese! argh. but that's not the point.. had the a math mock exam and all.. and it really really really was so stressful doing it., the stress really got to me and i was such a psycho.. yes i admint. i started
crying and laughing at the same time. i dunno what was wrong with me.. i mean i'd rather just cry, or just laugh.. not both.. it was torturous trying to control my laughter from annoying the whole class..
sorrie b4rians!! yes it's very ridiculous.. i was like.. if mr ling asked me where's question 5 and 6, i would tell him "it's in the bin!" i really crumpled my papers and threw it in.. i couldnt take it.. yes i
know i'm gonna fail really badly. and the worst thing was... *drumroll* it was considered an EASY PAPER! you know how demoralising that was? sighh.. i'm never gonna make it anywhere.. i had choices.
junior college
polytechnic
ITE? i dunno.. where am i to go? i definitely don't wanna go
overseas
where will i end up after secondary school?
how will i ever survive?
i dunno.. i hate this. absolutely. i can't do anything right.
talentless . brainless . useless . hopeless
that's what i am. that's what i feel. i feel crappy. lousy. and hopeless. what am i to do?
Heavenly Father, please send guidance from above.
[update/.]
=( ronald susilo!!! argh. was Singapore's only hope in this year's olympics! ahhhh.. what happened? no no no.. he beat the world number one but lost to thailand? noooooo... ='( but it's ok!
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.Tuesday, August 17, 2004
obstacles______in life?
my life is getting more and more complicated as the days go by
from the simple life of an ignorant, innocent little baby,
i begin to have so many problems now a days.
but i always will remember to look on the bright side of everything, i guess.
it's more like..
obstacles are put there to make us stronger.
but some are just too hard to handle.
i begin to wonder why my problems come in the middle of my study time
so close to the prelims.
i am yet to comprehend why things happen the way they do.
BUT don't worrie you people, i'm not gonna start thinking now.
for now.. all im gonna think about it the tys and how to complete it!
the prelims are coming like... *gasp*
next week!!!!
practical, that is..
so sarah shall be a really really guai girl, and start studying BEFORE my lovely friends who care so much about me start being such sweet, loving people like they always are and telling me that i should study NOW.
in case you were wonder..
ZERO SARCASM is being used here. i mean what i say. or in this case, type.
you people are the best! oh so nice and sweet and caring.. ahhhh..
I LOVE YOU!!!! *squeals*
well, haha.. wad would i do without friends who consistently remind me that i needa study!?
i begin to believe that time heals all wounds but just so happen, that i would need lots of time to get over this difficult phase of my life.
thank you Heavenly Daddy for your endless comfort, guidance, love and peace.
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.Saturday, August 14, 2004
i'm tickled --
slept really late last night,
so currently, i am in a state of "i'm tired"
but i had a 3 hour nap today after chem/a math tuition.
totally shacked.
so i hate tonnes of phonecalls during that period.
and i wonder
"why do people only call when i'm asleep?"
so yes. penny came over and gave me something she made
a sling bag made of a towel with a yellow star.
i wonder whether her mom realised a missing towel in the house.
so as per normal, she bugged me to leave the house.
doesn't matter where we go,
as long as we leave the house.
so the oh so nice sarah went to bukit panjang with her.
and oh help me! i ate like a pig.
i ate some egg tart from bread talk (haha. the lameness of it all)
then after that, ate some strawberry thingie also from bread talk
ate some octopus ball.
walked around.. and talked a lot of rubbish.
from like the 2nd level, something caught our eyes.
haha.. you'll not believe it.
but i strongly believe that penny officially has a
fetish for
colourful underwear ever since her birthday
and i am very tickled at that fact.
haha.. and she bought this stupid cat that goes "meow" nonstop once to press its tummy.
oh gosh. oh help! haha.. and something else.. which ticked me so much more.
but it'll be mean to disclose her deepest darkest fetish right here! =)
so yes, i'm nice.
after that we ate somemore..
ate loads of candy floss! the candy floss cloud was so big and fluffy.
so adorable.. it looks like a cloud. a pink cloud!
so i'm home. a little more refreshed when i first woke up.
so.. rahrah's actually gonna study tonight! haha..
i feel to depressed. i dunno why. but i feel really depressed!
so.. take care! may God bless you
PS: oh yes! now that the olympics have officially started..
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.Friday, August 13, 2004
double sided /.
why is my life full of double sided people.
or shall we say two faced?
when in front of you, they are ever so nice.
pretending to be there for you.
and behind your back,
they b**ch about you. big time.
i dislike these people.
but my life is surrounded by oh so many of them.
why can't they just be
true to themselves?
i feel betrayed and pissed off at the same time.
no i don't hate them, i am just irked at the fact that some do exist.
frequently, i ask myself, why are they like that?
i guess it's a natural tendency for girls to be like that..
but i am sure that we do know when to stop.
i mean
come one lah! i can't take it anymore.
sometimes, i control my hand.
but please don't take the fact that i'm too soft-hearted to your advantage,
i just might slap you one day.
it's so torturous. and yes i mean it,
if you wanna be nice, BE NICE
don't PRETEND to be nice.
it's been a long time since i've known a friend to do that to me
i thought it was over, it came back this year.
i wonder how many i would meet it jc/poly.
i really don't think i'll survive.
i feel angryyy..
why don't they understand? sighh.
it hurts.
so anyway, haha.. i realised something.
it's friday the 13th!
are you a paraskevidekatriaphobe?
i know greek! haha.. well one word.
that's a greek term for people who fear friday the 13th!
yup! that's the onli amount of little joy i can spread for today.
i am pissed. real pissed.
to those who got a B3:
it's okay! you have the potential!
regain your self-confidence and re-take it again.
you've got nothing to lose.
i'll see you all in the examination hall again. soon.
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.Wednesday, August 11, 2004
oh haha.. my counsellor just said that i look like i put on weight! aha.
haha. tomorrow we have mock e math exam after school and chem test during school. while our chinese O leve results will be out tomorrow! hmm.. i'm excited yet afraid. mixed feelings i guess. i can't wait for tomorrow actually. oh bother. i have to study the structure of the stupid bonds again. but oh wells. i guess it's fine once you get used to it! been doing lots of thinking. and i'm glad everything is over. i'm free from troubles. and it's all with the help of God. thank you Father for the endless guidance.
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.Tuesday, August 10, 2004
the swollen--
we've got to go back to school tomorrow again
and i dunno why but my left eye seems to be
puffed up
i think i'm allergic to delicacies..
haha.. it seems to me that my eyes only because big and ugly
after my granny was nice enough to give me some bird's nest to eat
haha.. yes my unappreciative eyes.
oh yes and before i forget
congratulations to shertbert on her new hair cut!
my eye hurts like crap!
i just changed my template because i was so bored..
i know i should be studying about the chemicals and all
but hey! i'm tired ok?
haha.. my eye hurts like crap.. and it's all big and swollen
and how am i supposed to survive
when i come onli see with one eye?
this is getting impossible..
i kinda dislike this national holiday..
haha.. oh yes.. i forgot to say something yesterday!
i love Singapore!
yeah! i should be wearing that i love singaproe shirt we got last year!
but haha.. absolutely forgot about it!
but hey! it has that ugly panasonic word behind anyway
the things we do for Singapore!
be gone ugly t-shirt!
and this computer isn't helping much!
it's getting cranky! haha.. don't you looooove Singapore?
i'm a little high due to lack of sleep
i hate a math..
speaking of math.. haha..
a reminder to all you 4b4 girls..
we have a chem test and an e math mock exam this thursday!
say good day to the 4b4 alarm clock! haha.. yes i'm crazy.. help
i should get some sleep yes? YES! good afternoon you lovely people!
see ya! muacks
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.Monday, August 09, 2004
happie birthday singapuraaaa
i spent my whole national day, sitting at home
infront of the table, rotting away.
my *cough* just won't go away. how persistant can these germs get?
anyway...
happie birthday to you
happie birthday to you
happie birthday to SINGAPORE!
happie birthday to youuuuu!
oh bother. so fine. i'm stuck at home.
it's not fair how my parents went to east coast and left me at home.
i wanted to go ok?
so fun. i could have gotten a tan, played volleyball, burnt some fats etc.
oh rahrah lost weight!
that was random. so ya.. i hate studying chemistry.
the whole day's been chem chem chem chem and more organic chem
it's just a matter of whether the chem we study is organic of inorganic.
argh. nevermind. if studying chem can make it annoying cough disappear, i dun mind studying chem for the rest of my life!
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.Sunday, August 08, 2004
the world, i cannot fully comprehend
somethings said never fail to make me stop whatever i'm doing, and make me sit down and think.. i am beginning to believe that whatever my tuition teacher said was all beginning to make sense.. he always told me that in order for one to survive in this world, we have to learn to
lie, cheat and steal.. i don't suppose he meant the literal meaning.. but the point is there.. the fact that being the good one will never get you anywhere in this world.. this world is full of hypocrites, backstabbers and what not.. people always tell me that
it's the heart that matters most.. but how many people actually look at the heart before judging? most people look at the outer appearance before starting a friendship.. some just have the approachable face while others don't i guess.. it's strange how the world never see the importance of truth in speech.. i don't understand why some have to lie in order to make a friendship.. are they afraid they would not be accepted because of family background? but see, true friends accept you for who you are.. call me weird or strange but i always tell myself that everytime friends and i face difference, it's a
blessing in disguise.. for it's only after a certain circumstance that i know who my true friends are.. and who are those who will stand by you through
thick and thin.. who are those that will leave you when troubles come.. it's a well-known fact that my circle of close friends is getting smaller in school, but for the small number of friends i have, at least i know that they are those i can count on and those that will lend me a shoulder to cry on.. i guess i can never fully comprehend what is going on in anyone's mind, but i do believe that our actions do hurt others even though they don't show it. i've seen lots hurt but never show it for they don't see the point in doing so.. i've been living almost close to 16 years in this world, and i am that far away from understanding humans, like myself.. like why do things happen the way they do? like why is it always those closest to you, always the ones that hurt you? well at least now, i have a goal in life.. i feel a need to
understand others.. but i do understand that, you can
never please the whole world.
All the world's a stage
And all the men and women merely players.
They have their exits and their entrances
And one man in his time plays many parts
His acts being seven ages
one thing i love about literature is that it never fails to leave me thinking.. what does william shakespeare mean by all the world's a stage and all men and women merely players? i was analysing this.. and i realised that in modern day context, players and plays many parts have double meaning.. in one's life, there are many people that we meet, we meet people that play many different roles in our lives.. they can play both the angel and the devil at the same time.. the one that helps you up may also be the one that makes you fall.. basically, the ones you trust most, are also the ones that cause you misery, pain and hurt.
my prelims are coming and i know that i should be
concentrating on them but life just seems to occupy my mind with so many other things that i cannot comprehend.. i always tell myself, since it is impossible for me to comprehend it, why bother? but this is one thing that i
need to understand because it affects me and it affects my friends.
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.Saturday, August 07, 2004
i know i'm pretty random sometimes
*cheers!
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time flies at 1sec/sec
this week seemed extremely
short for me
well, i was sick from monday to wednesday
so all i did was stay at home and rot.
thursday passed relatively fast, 'cos after school i stayed in school until 4 plus for a math remedial
by the time i got home, it was like 5?
yesterday was
national day celebration
pretty fun, but it passed really quickly.
after that i went home, took a little nap and went to orchard to buy penny's prezzie (haha)
time passes so quickly, that it kinda sucks sometimes.
ya.. somehow i hate it when time passes quickly.
right now, what i really need the most is time.
with the prelims coming up and followed by the Os,
time is extremely precious to me.
but i always feel like killing myself for not using every precious second wisely
and today, i had 4 hours of tuition in the morning
came back and took my medicine again, felt drowsy and slept.
so now, it's already so late, and the only work i've done for the day is during tuition!
this cant' go on. i'm still on medication
and i find it hard to keep myself awake. crap.
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.Wednesday, August 04, 2004
laughter isn't always the best medicine
i should be having ss/lit once i'm done updating..
shucks, i can't go to school again..
last night, i was actually telling myself
"oh yay! i'm going back to school again!"
but noooo.. my temperature went up again this morning.
when will i ever be well enough to go back to school? *sniff*
yeah so i'm stuck at home, rotting away.
and now, my temperature decided to drop. crappy.
i begin to realise that laughter
isn't always the best medicine
especially when there's something wrong with your ribs.
haha.. it seems that everytime i laugh, my ribs will start to ache.
i think i'm dying.
yes, so my granny didn't know that laughing would make me ache,
by talking to my dog.
i begin to type as she talks (so i might miss out some words)
she talks to leroy and nelle..
to leroy: "leroy, you're growing so old already. Old people when they grow old, their hair turns white, but for you, your face turns white. Old man old man.."
to nelle: "nelle, do you know that you are a white dog? can't tell right? see, look! your feet is brown and worse, look at your face! so brown already. Just because sarah is sick doesn't mean you can't bathe yourself you know? you want to be a white dog then you should stay white. stop rolling around in the garden."
my brother: "a brown dog turns white while a white dog turns brown."
honestly, i think i've got a crazy family.
the fact that i'm aching all over,
makes them laugh.
well maybe to them it's a good sign
the house will suddenly become very very quiet.
well that's until i wake up and start complaining about the pain,
start coughing and start poking my brother
saying "khor, painful"
aren't i such a irritating little creature?
haha.. actually, it's not that bad being sick.
you suffer, but not alone! muahahaha..
i should be going back to school tomorrow.
missed too many lessons already =(
thank you:
penny amanda ong
nicky kim
jessica
winston
ian jojo
ade
brenda choo(and all those whom i did not mention)
for your care and concern
I LOVE YOU ALL!
Yup! so for now, i shall go back into my room and start sleeping.. =D
God Bless You all, my little angels!
see yaaa..
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.Monday, August 02, 2004
ah-choo!!!
*sniff* i left school early today because of my sickness
thanks jess for looking after meee!
i sound like a duck now..
well not as duckish as ade did but still a duck
been told i sound like a dying told lady
haha.. looked at myself in the mirror.
didnt see myself, but a ghost.
ahhh.. doctor gave me so many kinds of medicine to eat..
i feel like dying.
i got cough syrup, some fever tablets, anti-biotics again, some flu tablets and some phlegm
so i feel like a dying patient in the hospital.
i'm actually on mc for like 2 days (today and tomorrow)
but i might just go back to school tomorrow if i'm well enough
i realised that the prelims are coming so close and it's about time
i go to school and work really hard
staying back and have remedials with the respective teachers.
honestly, i want the chinese Os result to come out asap
so i will know whether i have to re-study for the re-test in the end of the year.
yucks i feel crappily sick and ill
i might just konk out on this chair any moment soon
because i just ate all my medicine.
oh the mgs founder's day 2004 pics are up!
but it's not the full album though!
*cough* i hate being sick! it's practically the worst feeling in the world.
now i'm currently in track pants, t-shirt and mgs jacket
but i'm still freezing.. shivering.. something is really wrong with me
i should go take a rest now..
i'll be back later on.. see yaa!
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